“I am curious to know what keeps you awake till late night?” somebody asked me. Since I could not answer the query, I got into this self-examination mode…
“Is it insomnia?”
“No. If that were so I wouldn’t fall asleep at all.”
“Then what is it?"
“Restlessness and calm.”
“Both together?”
“Indeed. Restlessness calms me, just as water squirting on the face cools one.”
“What do you do?”
“Dream.”
“You need to sleep for that.”
“Not to daydream.”
“But it is night.”
“You can simulate day.”
“But then it would not be night, so it defeats the purpose.”
“Maybe my day goes on long…”
“Isn’t there a technical thing called night?”
“As much as there is a technical thing called dream. Therefore, a daydream would not qualify. It would be a fantasy.”
“Is it not?”
“No. A fantasy is something we imagine. A daydream is what we recreate or seek to.”
“You mean to say a fantasy cannot be realised?”
“Why crave to fantasise if we wish to realise it? For me the value of a fantasy is in it being ephemeral, unattainable. If we make it real then all romance is lost.”
“So when you say your day is longer, isn’t the romance of night lost?”
“No. It is extending the parameters of Time. If I darken my windows in the day I am recreating night. After a while my body and mind may get attuned to it.”
“Then that happens to the night?”
“It waits for me.”
“That is being a tease.”
“Probably. I play mind games with the night. And the night responds. In the perfect silence I gather white clouds and rest my head on them.”
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"Khamoshi ka samaan hai aur main hoon
dayaar-e-khuftagaan hai aur main hoon"
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(“Probably. I play mind games with the night. And the night responds. In the perfect silence I gather white clouds and rest my head on them.”)
Very well articulated!
phew...
Am glad you responded to this. Btw, the person who had asked the query in the first place sent a text msg saying, "I am still clueless!" (about my staying up late)...
I love doing this.
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