is of different kinds, and breathes different meanings.” - Charlotte Bronte Have you experienced that about to say something feeling? That tip of the tongue feeling? That bite my tongue and swallow every morsel of a sentence feeling?
I am thinking about this. We interpret and misinterpret words. Have we ever thought about the way silence can work? I have had conversations with people who want to know why I have not expressed an opinion on something or the other. “You have not said anything about the curfew in Kashmir, what is happening in Orissa, Malegaon, Assam…”
They are topical and it isn’t that I don’t have an opinion. Sometimes, I cannot formulate my thoughts. Sometimes, my thoughts cannot find words. Sometimes, my words run ahead.
So, in that sense, my silence is indeed being perceived and conclusions are reached.
When I hibernate, there is a reason. That silence is melancholic, meditative. Or it may not be silence at all. It may be numbness. That is not akin to silence, which is a choice. When you are numb you feel nothing.
Despite my written output, which essentially amounts to speaking through words – and this is post #1001 on this blog! – I do leave a lot unsaid.
For, in the large desert I am only willing to share my vision of a sand castle with you…maybe you will be here on days when there is a sand storm or I spot an oasis. It will be conveyed as I take a sip of grit and let the water drip off my lips to form a patch of a temporary memory.
You have the luxury to wax lyrical upon silence because you are able to speak when you want to. You ask "Have you experienced that about to say something feeling?"; do you know what it is to never go beyond that?
ReplyDeleteWe all have that luxury; in fact keeping you shut is most desired by the listeners!
ReplyDelete{You ask "Have you experienced that about to say something feeling?"; do you know what it is to never go beyond that?}
Yes. Many times. It chokes.
There are reserved people who can't express,would that be silent or something else
ReplyDeleteKB:
ReplyDeleteThat kind of silence is different...it is an 'inbuilt' choice.